5 things

guilt is not a good motivator.

i have no idea why i thought the shame associated with eating a whole vegan pizza would be enough fuel for me to begin a juice fast the next day. as a former emotional binger, i have felt plenty of food shame and i still didn't lose weight. my motivation, interestingly enough, is not linked to emotions.

impulsiveness and spontaneity are short-lived novelties.
deciding to jump straight into the fast cold turkey due to said guilt/shame only made me feel good about how "strong" i was for about 1.2 days. after that, the realities of how irresponsible that decision was became VERY apparent.

willpower runs out.
i tend to think and operate in a dualistic mindset. so when i read switch and the authors discussed how no one has enough willpower to institute a variety of big changes all at the same time, i thought it was interesting but somewhat pandering to lazy people (like myself). i, just like everyone else, has an incredible amount of willpower that i exert on a daily basis. this time, due to a variety of academic and social pressures i have been experiencing lately, i didn't have enough to go around for the fast.

go big or go home doesn't always apply.
why did i decide on 10 days for my first time? and i was even thinking of doing it the full 60 days like joe, who is clearly a special case. why i didn't see the validity in trying a few days at a time and building up to something bigger is beyond me.

"resetting" your diet without resetting your mindset is futile.
the main reason for completing the fast should've been to further augment my desire to improve upon my health (which i am doing as a vegan), not as some crazy crash diet to make me feel better about that pizza. food is not evil, and not eating it shouldn't be some sort of entryway into being "good."

i am determined to make a juice fast work because i don't like quitting and i am really interested in the results. (plus, crossing things off of my 30x30 gives me a serious high!)
but i will be much more mindful of transitioning into it as opposed to going cold turkey, and i will ensure i start at a time when i have no large commitments/stressors.

in essence, i really need to do what i normally do best: plan!

linking up with chantel

in pursuit of:

treating each perceived failure as a learning opportunity in an effort to combat my irrational fear of failure (a 30x30 honorable mention)

... and so, it begins: the 10-day juice fast

i have approached the idea of doing a juice fast many times but i've always had excuses: juicers are a pain to clean, buying fresh produce in bulk is expensive, and i'm too lazy to go to the store everyday. plus, i was pretty sure i would die from just drinking juice. i really liked the idea, but i just knew i'd never do it.

i was making nutribullets for a time, and that was great, but then i just fell off of that (mostly because i am lazy... there's a pattern here). 

when i found out i was coming back to grad school and decided to live on campus, i knew i had to sign up for a meal plan. and that was when i discovered that there is now a jamba juice on campus.

and now i have no excuses. 

i don't have a juicer to clean (although i hate how much waste this will create even with the recyclable cups - i am going to try and get in good with one of the juicing ninjas to see if she will fill up my reusable bottle or mason jar instead), i don't have to go to the store, and it's free with my meal plan.

i know that jamba juice isn't the BEST choice, but i'm willing to at least try.

i watched fat, sick and nearly dead again and spent a good amount of late nights up reading blogs and holistic journals, watching videos, and getting inspired by success stories. i was warming up to the idea but didn't know if i would actually go for it until i devoured a whole vegan pizza last night.

i already know the detox is going to be horrible from that, but i just can't keep putting it off. i know myself, and i know i will make excuses forever.
today is the day...

... and so, it begins.

in pursuit of:

trying something i never thought i would do