#fitnessfriday: fitness confessions 2.0

so... remember how i started the simply filling technique with weight watchers?
oh, i filled up alright....

i have been a binger for pretty much the last 21 years of my life, so i don't know why i thought things would be any different just because i was eating brown rice and beans.
sike.
i was still binging, and once i did that enough times with "health food," i eventually got bored and started binging on everything.

i'm tired of dieting!!!!

i love FOOD, and i need variety!

and i loved how "free" i thought i was on low carb because i got to binge as much as i wanted and not gain weight. but as soon as i looked at a potato, 5 lbs packed on immediately.
i literally just do not know how to eat like a normal person. changing the food to low carb only worked for so long before i got bored. 

so, in thinking about the ONLY time i was successful eating anything i wanted and keeping it off, i remembered weigh down. it's what i followed back then, and it not only improved my relationship with food (food wasn't this thing i constantly thought about - i wake up immediately thinking about what i want to eat now!), but also my relationship with god. 

i tried intuitive eating, which is based upon the same principles as weigh down, but i think the lack of the spiritual aspect is what really kept me from being successful on IE. 

i am a firm believer that the mind, body, and spirit work together. and so, i confess that my ideas of food and health are completely jacked. moreover, i confess that i need help, and i am not too proud to pray about it!

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#fitnessfriday | fitness confessions

as much as i am tired of being on this weight loss and gain rollercoaster, there are just some things i cannot get myself to do!

i hate cardio. especially running.
like seriously.
i don't think i hate anything more than cardio. my last attempt at running put me in a walking boot and orthotics for the rest of my life.

i was active up until college but unless it's yoga or weights, i just cannot stick to any exercise consistently anymore. even though i sometimes get the workout high after i force myself to do it, it hardly ever carries over to the next day when i'm deciding between whether or not i want to sleep longer or hate my life for the next 30-60 minutes.

i need wine.
not necessarily in that quantity, but i definitely get my 4-5 ounces of red every night. sure, they say it's healthy now, but that'll probably change. like, remember how eggs used to be SUPER unhealthy?
here's the thing... wine could make me sprout a third eye in 10 years, and it would still have a permanent spot in my home.

i can't track.
i have tried tons and tons of ways to track my food intake, including counting calories, carbs, bites, etc, but the habit just will not stick for the long term.
instead, i rejoined weight watchers (ah!), and i am using the simply filling technique that doesn't requiring tracking. you just eat off of this list of power foods until you're full, and the only things you track are foods not on that list. i went through and wrote down everything that i could eat in all of the dining halls on campus, and there is honestly not much that i can't eat or drink anyway.
except wine. that'll be a daily 4 points.
this, to  me, feels like a REAL lifestyle change.

i weigh in on wednesdays, so i will have some updates next week!

what are your fitness confessions?